Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in lilyfish's InsaneJournal:

Monday, March 1st, 2010
1:57 am	i've been digging my thumbail, as deep and hard as i can, into the tender gum tissue between my bottom back molar & budding wisdom tooth. tonight i did it until i tasted blood. hmm. i still love to hurt myself. but in such tiny ways,,, does it matter? (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 27th, 2010
4:37 am	i don't want to cry. i just want to do something profoundly stupid and self abusive. but i can't, i'm "responsible" now. it's amazing that i haven't cut myself in 5 years and it's still the first thing my body wants to reach for. there's no release ike it. i can't, though. have to hold on to my one and only tether to sanity. i fucking hate you brodie pomper. if i could attain eternal sunshine, for the low price of forgetting you, i would. i can do so much better, but that never mattered to me. it still doesn't. i hate that i will STILL fall into the bonesplintering trap of your mindfuck addiction, every fucking time. i hate depression. stress. the insomnia. how taut and raw i feel inside. no way to fix it. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
2:42 pm	groundfloor of a steel & concrete skeleton near glen rock, pennsylvania, veiled by yellow leaves. meadow green farm (Comment on this)